Friday, February 6, 2009

Ignorance is bliss…

Today is one of those days when I really wish I was not so aware of everything to do with pregnancy. But I do..i know everything that can go wrong…Last time I got a BFP, I didn’t even reach this far…so I am completely in a new phase, but somehow I feel I know it all…All those hours of reading! I have an overload of information…

I got my BFP on the 4th evening, and I had put down my papers at work that very day! I had decided 15 days ago that I couldn't continue working at this office. It was stressing me out and just didn’t feel worth it. After my BFP I decided that I will not even serve my two month notice period. The first trimester is the most important. I just don’t want to take any risks. From April I may get a job (fingers crossed) that I can do from home. But this decision meant I lost 2 months salary…

I make more money than Mallik and I know this loss of salary will pinch us. I also send money home to my mother…I am so tired of being responsible. I wanted to able to be a little selfish and think of my little bean…I trying hard to shrug off this feeling of guilt and thing only about the life inside…The doctor had asked me specifically not to travel by autos (a mode of transport in India, which I use to go to work everyday) and I cannot afford taxi everyday.

So here I am..at home…trying to stay positive…Just give me two months…let me give my best to the dream we have had…Let me put my feet up and think of nothing but good things…let me not worry about money…give me strength….


PS: Thanks so much girls for your best wishes…I don’t know what we did different last month…I truly think it may have something to do with the energy card Dan sent me…Thanks Dan…and yes the baby is going to called Dan!!!

5 comments:

Nikki said... Best Blogger Tips

Try to take one day at a time. Try not to worry about money and finances. These things have a way of working themselves out.

Good luck!

aredev said... Best Blogger Tips

Congrats Chandita!

Sorry I was not aware of what is happening in your life as we have been completely out of touch.

But now with this great news, I think I'll keep in touch with you. Next time when you are online yahoo!, just give me a buzz & we will exchange updates. Congratulation once gain & best of luck.

I completely agree with Nikki. Do one thing at a time. Don't overstress yourself.

Best regards,

Rahul

nh said... Best Blogger Tips

Congratulations...
and let the guilt go - there is plenty of time for that, for the moment concentrate on you and look after yourself. Something will work itself out!

Take care, N

mylifechronicles said... Best Blogger Tips

OMG!! OMG!!! This is such good news! Congratulations!!!! ((HUGS))

I am sorry I missed your first announcement. I am moving you to my IF success stories list!

Danelle said... Best Blogger Tips

This is good news and I am soooooo happy! Daan is better than Dan. I always think I am confused with my sexuality with Dan bec Shreesh gave me that name! LOL hahaha. Love you loads! YAY