Second Trimester - Whoosh!!!

I am almost at the end of my 2nd trimester. In spite of all the physical discomfort, these last three months just flew away... It feels surreal that in a few days I will be in my seventh month...Whoa! Time sure is flying...

Physically, things are going from bad to worse. The painkillers helped me cope with the SPD pain a little, and a lot of lying on the bed made things a bit easier, but now my back and ribs have decided to NOT let me lie in the bed. So lets see, I cant walk too much of my pelvic bone starts killing me. I cant sit for too long for the same reason and now I can't lie down either (sleeping in any case has become an Utopia)... Things got really nasty this last week. my 11 year old brother in law got a bad cut and needed 6 stitches. So I was on his beck and call the whole week. He is back in school now, and I can rest a little.

Oh yeah, my haemoglobin levels have dropped to 9.9 so now I gotta work to get that in order too.

I shouldn't crib I guess but not easy ...

Emotionally, I feel lonely, and wish I had someone down here with me. My sister and mother are going to visiting me in August, so that is something to look forward to...I am not very good at asking people for emotional support, have really not needed much of it. Have always been a loner, and for my family, I have always been the strongest one (they got no clue how much hard work it took to get rid of all that emotional baggage)

But somehow i am also feeling stronger. I have fallen head over heels in love with this little rascal...

It is an amazing and an overwhelming feeling when your baby kicks inside your womb.... I watch my tummy for hours just to look at the kicks and movements... Yesterday, he was happily swimming around (it gets a little uncomfortable) and I *think* was poking me with his head. I gave a little pat, and right away, he kicked back. It almost felt like we were communicating. We kept the game up for 5 minutes, but then I guess he got tired and went to explore some other interesting part of the uterus... I know it was all my imagination, but it sure felt good ...

Right now, am a little scared about a pre-term baby, as SPD can cause pre-term labour. my sister had SPD and her lill daughter was born at 33 weeks...am asking baby Dan to stay put for at least another 10-11 weeks...

A question: IS it only me, or do all mom-to-be worry about ugly babies? I am definitely not a shallow person, but I don't want my child to go through what I did. Being compared to others and told that you are not good enough hurts, and can scar you for life...But no matter what, I will make sure my baby has a beautiful heart and soul...

I am done worrying...Keep telling myself my favourite phrase "God has a plan for my life, and that's all I need to know". Come on life, throw me whatever challenge you can think of, i WILL WIN, YOU JUST SEE...

PS: RIP Jacko...your music will live on...

Belly pics!

Finally, I managed to get some belly pics clicked.... at 24 weeks....Dont know what to do about the dark circles...guess I need to sleep more, but I dont see that happening in the near future...

SPD it is...

Went to the doctor, and told her about her about my doubts... During my previous visit she had told me that i was getting all these aches and pains due to calcium deficiency. She was obviously wrong! Now, its confirmed, I have SPD. Wonderful! Means am on partial bed rest, and a normal delivery seems more and more improbable.....

The pain is unbearable, and am on painkillers... Doc says, nothing can really cure it...But the painkillers will ease the pain a 'little'. I just want a little break so I can sleep....

Whatever.... and is anybody even reading my blog anymore? lol...i have had the urge to stop writing more then once..but well I tell myself am doing it for myself.... Hormonal? you bet...

When what you love is bad for you...

Here are a few pic of Hyderabad monsoon....a view from my window...

The Monsoon has arrived. After more then 4 months of kick ass heat, the rain has finally decided to show up...

I love the rain. Have always loved it... listening to the raindrops, watching the trees comes alive after the scorching summer... I love to get drenched and just go mad... This year, getting wet was out of question, didn't want to catch a cold (being preggo and having a cold is no fun)... But i realized that the rains will never be the same for me... With the first raindrops, i felt my knees and feet become stiff... Yup, my arthritis is making a comeback... The doctor had told me that the cold and moist weather can lead to a flair...

As if the bad ass pelvic pain wasn't bad enough, now my knees feel frozen. I was even scared to get down from the bed this morning and kept pretending to sleep till 10! I was just scared of the pain. But when there is a 11 year old at home waiting for food, you just cant keep sleeping...

I wish i could just let the house be in disarray, i wish i was not such cleanliness freak..... I wish I had some support system here in Hyderabad, i just want to be taken care of! Mallik helps as much as he can, but it just isn't enough. I don't want to call my mom over... I know that I will end up worrying about her instead of her helping me out. She has diabetes and high BP... She deserves to just rest instead of helping me out...

MIL can be asked to help, but I know how that will end, and I don't want all that unpleasantness...

Hmmm, self pity trip? everyone deserves to go on one, once in while, right?

PS: I just did some research and it seems that I have Diastasis Symphysis Pubis (DSP).

Its symptoms often include one or more of the following:
pubic pain
pubic tenderness to the touch; having the fundal height measured may be uncomfortable
lower back pain, especially in the sacro-iliac area
difficulty/pain rolling over in bed
difficulty/pain with stairs, getting in and out of cars, sitting down or getting up, putting on clothes, bending, lifting, standing on one foot, lifting heavy objects, etc.
sciatica (pain in buttocks and down the leg)
"clicking" in the pelvis when walking
waddling gait
difficulty getting started walking, especially after sleep
feeling like hip is out of place or has to pop into place before walking
bladder dysfunction (temporary incontinence at change in position) ..Just WONDERFUL...
knee pain or pain in other areas can sometimes also be a side-effect of pelvis problems
some chiropractors feel that round ligament pain (sharp tearing or pulling sensations in the abdomen) can be related to SPD

20 week scan

I got just the details, don't know how to post the scan image!


Single intra uterine live fetus in Breech presentation at the time of scan
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Placenta: Anterior fundal and body grade I maturity.
Around 4.1 cm from internal OS
.Fetal movements are active at time of scan
.Fetal cardiac activity - 148 bpm and regular
.Amniotic fluid -
Adequate for the gestational age ( AFI - 14.5)

FOETAL BIOMETRY

B.P.D: 51.2 mm corresponding to 21 weeks 4 days.

F.L: 37.5 mm corresponding to 22 weeks 0 days.

A.C: 175.9 mm corresponding to 22 weeks 3 days.

H.C 188.1 mm corresponding to 21 weeks 1 day.

Estimated fetal weight : (EFW) : 476 grms.

EDD according to U/S : 09.10.2009

The best news? I have gained 3kgs!!! yupieee... But man, the aches and pains! My pelvic bone hurts like mad, when i am walking....

I have been trying for days now for Mallik to have the patience to feel one of baby Dan's formidable kicks (which I have been feeling for the last 2 weeks at least) and it happened yesterday night as we were watching Rush Hour 3 (bad bad movie yeah)... it was so awesome to watch tht expression on Mallik's face...priceless..

ADD: A lot of my friends have asked me about baby Dan's gender. Unfortunately in India we cannot ask for the baby's gender. It is illegal. This is to prevent female female foeticide. I do think its a boy though! just my gut instinct. What do you think?