Am back :-) well, am off bed rest, baby Dan is still inside, and everything seems to be in order. Mallik has sent my PC away till December as an de-addiction trial.. yup I was pretty addicted. So now I am at a cyber cafe. I will be checking my mails every week.
Am doing well! better then I have in the last 7 months. the month long bed rest helped a lot. Will be reading up on all your entries and comment :)
lotsa love...
As Good As It Gets?
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Bed Rest - some prayers?
Been having cramps in lower abdomen... Been put on 2 week bed rest. Send some prayers and ask baby Dan to stay in there for at least 2 more months???
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Second Trimester - Whoosh!!!
I am almost at the end of my 2nd trimester. In spite of all the physical discomfort, these last three months just flew away... It feels surreal that in a few days I will be in my seventh month...Whoa! Time sure is flying...
Physically, things are going from bad to worse. The painkillers helped me cope with the SPD pain a little, and a lot of lying on the bed made things a bit easier, but now my back and ribs have decided to NOT let me lie in the bed. So lets see, I cant walk too much of my pelvic bone starts killing me. I cant sit for too long for the same reason and now I can't lie down either (sleeping in any case has become an Utopia)... Things got really nasty this last week. my 11 year old brother in law got a bad cut and needed 6 stitches. So I was on his beck and call the whole week. He is back in school now, and I can rest a little.
Oh yeah, my haemoglobin levels have dropped to 9.9 so now I gotta work to get that in order too.
I shouldn't crib I guess but not easy ...
Emotionally, I feel lonely, and wish I had someone down here with me. My sister and mother are going to visiting me in August, so that is something to look forward to...I am not very good at asking people for emotional support, have really not needed much of it. Have always been a loner, and for my family, I have always been the strongest one (they got no clue how much hard work it took to get rid of all that emotional baggage)
But somehow i am also feeling stronger. I have fallen head over heels in love with this little rascal...
It is an amazing and an overwhelming feeling when your baby kicks inside your womb.... I watch my tummy for hours just to look at the kicks and movements... Yesterday, he was happily swimming around (it gets a little uncomfortable) and I *think* was poking me with his head. I gave a little pat, and right away, he kicked back. It almost felt like we were communicating. We kept the game up for 5 minutes, but then I guess he got tired and went to explore some other interesting part of the uterus... I know it was all my imagination, but it sure felt good ...
Right now, am a little scared about a pre-term baby, as SPD can cause pre-term labour. my sister had SPD and her lill daughter was born at 33 weeks...am asking baby Dan to stay put for at least another 10-11 weeks...
A question: IS it only me, or do all mom-to-be worry about ugly babies? I am definitely not a shallow person, but I don't want my child to go through what I did. Being compared to others and told that you are not good enough hurts, and can scar you for life...But no matter what, I will make sure my baby has a beautiful heart and soul...
I am done worrying...Keep telling myself my favourite phrase "God has a plan for my life, and that's all I need to know". Come on life, throw me whatever challenge you can think of, i WILL WIN, YOU JUST SEE...
PS: RIP Jacko...your music will live on...
Physically, things are going from bad to worse. The painkillers helped me cope with the SPD pain a little, and a lot of lying on the bed made things a bit easier, but now my back and ribs have decided to NOT let me lie in the bed. So lets see, I cant walk too much of my pelvic bone starts killing me. I cant sit for too long for the same reason and now I can't lie down either (sleeping in any case has become an Utopia)... Things got really nasty this last week. my 11 year old brother in law got a bad cut and needed 6 stitches. So I was on his beck and call the whole week. He is back in school now, and I can rest a little.
Oh yeah, my haemoglobin levels have dropped to 9.9 so now I gotta work to get that in order too.
I shouldn't crib I guess but not easy ...
Emotionally, I feel lonely, and wish I had someone down here with me. My sister and mother are going to visiting me in August, so that is something to look forward to...I am not very good at asking people for emotional support, have really not needed much of it. Have always been a loner, and for my family, I have always been the strongest one (they got no clue how much hard work it took to get rid of all that emotional baggage)
But somehow i am also feeling stronger. I have fallen head over heels in love with this little rascal...
It is an amazing and an overwhelming feeling when your baby kicks inside your womb.... I watch my tummy for hours just to look at the kicks and movements... Yesterday, he was happily swimming around (it gets a little uncomfortable) and I *think* was poking me with his head. I gave a little pat, and right away, he kicked back. It almost felt like we were communicating. We kept the game up for 5 minutes, but then I guess he got tired and went to explore some other interesting part of the uterus... I know it was all my imagination, but it sure felt good ...
Right now, am a little scared about a pre-term baby, as SPD can cause pre-term labour. my sister had SPD and her lill daughter was born at 33 weeks...am asking baby Dan to stay put for at least another 10-11 weeks...
A question: IS it only me, or do all mom-to-be worry about ugly babies? I am definitely not a shallow person, but I don't want my child to go through what I did. Being compared to others and told that you are not good enough hurts, and can scar you for life...But no matter what, I will make sure my baby has a beautiful heart and soul...
I am done worrying...Keep telling myself my favourite phrase "God has a plan for my life, and that's all I need to know". Come on life, throw me whatever challenge you can think of, i WILL WIN, YOU JUST SEE...
PS: RIP Jacko...your music will live on...
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Belly pics!
Finally, I managed to get some belly pics clicked.... at 24 weeks....Dont know what to do about the dark circles...guess I need to sleep more, but I dont see that happening in the near future...
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
SPD it is...
Went to the doctor, and told her about her about my doubts... During my previous visit she had told me that i was getting all these aches and pains due to calcium deficiency. She was obviously wrong! Now, its confirmed, I have SPD. Wonderful! Means am on partial bed rest, and a normal delivery seems more and more improbable.....
The pain is unbearable, and am on painkillers... Doc says, nothing can really cure it...But the painkillers will ease the pain a 'little'. I just want a little break so I can sleep....
Whatever.... and is anybody even reading my blog anymore? lol...i have had the urge to stop writing more then once..but well I tell myself am doing it for myself.... Hormonal? you bet...
The pain is unbearable, and am on painkillers... Doc says, nothing can really cure it...But the painkillers will ease the pain a 'little'. I just want a little break so I can sleep....
Whatever.... and is anybody even reading my blog anymore? lol...i have had the urge to stop writing more then once..but well I tell myself am doing it for myself.... Hormonal? you bet...
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