Being a mother

Dealing with akhil (my husbands cuisin brother) is tough to say the least..yes he needs a lot of attention and he loves to talk and ask questions..so after reaching home, i make it a pont to spend time with him, and have my dinner with him..we generally talk till 10.30, till his eyes are all droopy and then i push him off to sleep...now i have to work doubly hard as his exams r around and his tutuion teacher is changing her house in d first week of april, so i will have to ake care of his studies...so yesterday i made him a time table....

He is naughty, and ppl (his mom, my gand mother in law) are always nagging him...i try to make them understand tht wot he needs right now is understanding, he is going thru a tough time....u know one of d best things i have heard till date? first was wen my brother told his teacher tht I had the maximum influence over him and recently wen Akhil askd me "Bhabi, how do u know so much? how can u answer all the questions i ask? " i felt in top of d world.....

Had to struggle a lot to keep him here with us. He lost his father even before he was born. Mallik loves him to bits and i supported his idea of keeping akhil with us. Akhil needed some grounded upbringing. My mother in law is not staying with us and have called me names..why? just because i loved Akhil more then her daugters children. They cudnt even appreciate tht a girl didnt complain once about having to take care of a child immediately after marriage...
another year or 2 and akhil will go back to his home, tough on me...

One of my Favourite songs..

This is one of my fav songs, from the movie "You've Got Mail' starring Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan..

Get in touch with that sundown fellow
As he tiptoes across the sand
He's got a million kinds of stardust
Pick your fav'rite brand,

andDream, when you're feeling blue
Dream, that's the thing to do
Just watch the smoke rings rise in the air
You'll find your share of memories there

So dream when the day is through
Dream, and they might come true
Things never are as bad as they seem
So dream, dream, dream
Dream when the day is through
Dream, and they might come true

Things never are as bad as they seem
So dream, dream, dream
Dream
So dream, dream, dream

Creation Hymn

This is the creation hymn from the Rig Veda. I am awed each time I read it..

There was neither non-existence nor existence then. There was neither the realm of space nor the sky which is beyond. What stirred? Where? In whose protection? Was there water, bottlemlessly deep?
There was neither death nor immortality then. There was no distinguishing sign of night nor of day. That One breathed, windless, by its own impulse. Other than that there was nothing beyond.
Darkness was hidden by darkness in the beginning, with no distinguishing sign, all this was water. The life force that was covered with emptiness, that One arose through the power of heat.
Desire came upon that One in the beginning, that was the first seed of mind. Poets seeking in their heart with wisdom found the bond of existence and non-existence.
Their cord was extended across. Was there below? Was there above? There were seed-placers, there were powers. There was impulse beneath, there was giving forth above.
Who really knows? Who will here proclaim it? Whence was it produced? Whence is this creation? The gods came afterwards, with the creation of this universe. Who then knows whence it has arisen?
Whence this creation has arisen– perhaps it formed itself, or perhaps it did not –the One who looks down on it, in the highest heaven, only He knows or perhaps He does not know.

"the One who looks down on it, in the highest heaven"..Thats the creater, Brahma...He should know how and when the Universe was created ... "only He knows or perhaps He does not know"...Then why this confusion? is it because Brahma does not know how he, the creater was created.....

People call me mad when I want to discuss this, maybe I am.....But how can we not seek the answers to these fundamental questions?

Blessed

I feel blessed to have Mallik as my husband..he is not perfect, neither am I... but the love and respect he gives me is just amazing.....

Cant say no..

All my colleagues are going out of town, my ticket is booked too..but I just dont want to go.. i am tired of all the travelling, but i just cant say no!!! this is so irritating...